We all mourn numbers

4,654, the number people mourn

64, the “official” number of deaths

4, the category of the hurricane that changed our lives

20^th, the day in September

4 days that we spent inside, without leaving the house

3, stage cancer my dad was diagnosed

296 days since my dad passed

5, the number of weeks his treatment got delayed

4, the number of weeks the hospital didn’t have electricity

7 doctors saw him since the diagnosis

1,000, the number of times I’ve played different scenarios in my head

1, the number of chemos he received before the hurricane

4, the number of children who adored him

63 years he was on this earth

11 hours on a line to get gas to be able to drive him to the hospital

0, the number of doctors who talked to us after he died

38 years he was married to my mom

27 years he lived on this island

6 people carried his casket

0, the number of times he told me I couldn’t do something because I was a girl

13 therapy sessions since his death

29^th, the day he died

4,654 a number everyone mourns

4,654+1, the number I mourn

Unknown, the number that was